This website and my life

This website was originally designed for my to post witty comment on my life but for a while now I have become bored with the idea of life. I am not going to kill myself but I am so bored and the idea of death as a release is one that I have.
This has only come about since my cat died. I never noticed how little joy I had in my life. All I can say is that I exist now for nothing. All I do is listen to metal and dance while trying to revise for my exams. I am currently trying to get everything in order for I leave college. It is the end of an era for me. I in this last year have made lots of new friends and all of them are more interesting than me. I feel like a shallow pool with a façade of underwater currents. I have nothing to back up these currents and this annoys me. As it all for show. I have lots of friends but I feel awkward in conversations because I cannot add anything to them normally other than the chaos element.
I need to change myself.